She has sex with him at least three times a “weak.” Thinks that if she keeps him engaged, he won’t want to leave. . Remembers her father saying he would be back, going to the store and disappearing for days lost in the self-worth he lacked. . Thinks that her mother drove her father away, that if she can be sexy enough, woman enough, perfect enough, her husband will want to stay. . She believes the narratives in the media, narratives that sell a self-destructive truth. If she loses 11 more pounds, she might just be good. . Enough for him, for herself. . She waxes and sprays, plucks and shades, injects and alters, because the truth is she hates what she sees, and she falters. . In a world constructed to de-construct beauty she believes perfection lies in a plastic flower. . In a world saturated with L’Oréal and COVERGIRL there’s nothing Real about Covering a Girl’s power. . She obsesses about the dark circles under her eyes, cellulite that deforms her perception of perfect thighs. . The softness of her midriff shames, it’s her pregnancies she blames. . Her mother taught her to share, to care for others, and to dare, but she forgot to teach her to love herself, to see herself in front of the mirror and unconditionally bare . the parts of her body society has taught her to hate, because she will never be good enough, . she will never be good enough in her shape. . It’s crazy cuz the natural brown of her skin is a societal discriminant unless it’s a tan, then it’s accepted as Societal advance. . Except in Mexico or Philippines where the working class yearns to whiten their skin, darkened by the hue of the soil wished they could change their kin. . The natural plumpness of her lips is too afro-centric unless it’s created with implants or injectable fillers because that’s what’s accepted. . She is hyper-sexualized and then marginalized for having sex too early, contradicting messages that have her twisted morally. . Told her sexuality is a sin and blamed for the depravation of men. . She’s been reduced to sexual pleasure, her body the object of measure. . But she yearns for a spiritual connection, to be made love to in the depths of her soul for who she really is only there will anyone know. . She doesn’t fulfill the physical demands society has constructed to see herself as beautiful. . Her daughters notice and soon enough their own beauty becomes mutable. . You see our natural beauty is not reproducible, natural recognizes that only nature Can produce such magnificence. . Irreducible to sodium hydroxide relaxers and dyes flat irons, Spanks, and contacts that color eyes. . Es Negrita pero esta bonita. Es gordita pero es de buen corazón. Thank you, but she doesn’t need you to Justify what’s already perfect. In learning to love herself, she has stopped searchin’. . Do me a favor and Just Defy the archetype of a physique that only serves misogynistic lies. . I once heard a quote in a movie: “If God created the world, how do we know what things we can change and what things must remain sacred?” . As long as we continue to deny our divine beauty we will be lost in self-hatred.